Rain storms

I have a box of letters that everyone sent after Ruth died.  Most I could not read at the time I received them.  I tucked them away as they came now the mail has returned to bills and advertisements and I will start to re-visit the box.

Avy came over for a play date after school today.  B did pretty well only one fairly quiet fit.  Bennett still has a hard time sharing.   I had a stash of salami to offer Avy while she waited for B to recover.  The fits in general have decreased.

Sandy asks a lot of questions - she is a journalist.  While we ate my soup from the freezer Sandy asked if we should seek out therapy.  I believe we came to the conclusion that we are ok - working through a great deal but not clinically depressed.  I will join the bereavement group when it opens up(the fall).

I owe a lot to Sandy, Ruth C, the woods, jogging and Marianna (Ruth's Mom).    Everyone is going through their own pain but somehow they listen to me and B and help.  Marianna sent me another great email (they come once every few weeks well thought out).  She told me of the things she held onto of Dirk's - so simple, beautiful and powerful.

Zues and I jogged 2.5 miles on Mnt Tom - in between the rain storms.