Tired

Tired - that is what I am.  I fall asleep when Bennett goes to bed maybe even before she falls asleep.  Somehow this is what I need.

Bennnett woke up at 5 am today she tried to get me out of bed.  We stayed in bed snacking on bannanas and chatting eventually she fell back to sleep around 9 am.  I had to get her up to go to a performance at her school at 10 am.  For the first time in two years she wanted to go and she got on stage and performed. These performances were kind of torturous before she would go but not want to be on stage without mom.  Today she did it!  It was the last one -she played violen and guitar (little exercises) it was amazing.

I did not have a camera - I did not invite Aunties.  Hopefully we may get some pics from other parents.  Estelle's mom took pictures of them and Estelle told Bennett she did a wonderful job!  Estelle is a great  little friend.  I am sad that we are leaving Prelude.

I did not run today but ran 3.5 miles yesterday and 2.5 the day before with Z - I know I ran wednesday 3 miles.

Good times

Lynne and B 

We are exhausted from our weekend.  It was great.  Lynne a friend from Alfred came up from NYC to visit us.  She is very kind, generous and loves kids.  Bennett took to her right away and they had a lot of fun.

Magically Lynne made a few calls and we ended up meeting up with two Alfred grads that live in the area.  One had two kids a boy and a girl - the girls birthday was only a few days away from Bennett's.  We invited them over to play and have Popsicles (it must have been 90 degrees at the park).  I think everyone had a good time - the kids were so sweet!

The other grad has a building right next to the one I am getting involved in.  It was great to see how much work they had done on the building and how much more they had to do!  This weekend was a much needed boost of good energy though I do not think B got to sleep before 9 pm.

exhausted B with Aunty

Sadly I dropped Lynne off at the train this morning.  I then went home to meet the Hampshire girls that are doing work exchange for studio time.  They are young and full of ambition and do not let me stop to become morose.


Zues and I ran 3 miles yesterday and I ran 3.5 miles today at the gym - I could not face the heat.  


Yeah! Aunt Ruth is back from her trip and dropped by tonight.

keeping busy

We have been very busy the past few days.  Bennett was out with Avy till bedtime last night.  They played in the park, went to friendly's for dinner and generally acted like little hooligans.  

Today we went to Aunties and saw some very cute puppies!  I think Aunties might be trying to get me a deal on the runt - he is so sweet, but all the others are already sold for $1,600 each (I am not holding my breath).  

B is currently passed out in a fetal position on my lap.   She was clingy all day and I had a struggle to get her into the bath tonight.  She is exhausted.  We are going to the train station tonight to pick up my friend Lynne hopefully the nap will help.

I ran 2 miles on thursday and 3.5 on friday - nothing today.

our hopes

So much to do - sometimes I just sit and cry.

I was going through Ruth's emails trying to reconfigure the computer email and came across this

"Ruth van Erp" <ruth.vanerp@gmail.com> 6/26/2007 9:45 AM >>>

Bennett Ranger van Erp was born June 23 at 7:10.  She weighed in at 6
lbs 7 oz and is 20.5 inches.  Moms and baby are doing great.  Pat was
incredibly heroic and graceful during labor and Bennett came out
screaming.  We are so happy to see her.  Pictures and more info will
follow.

Thanks to everyone for such wonderful support and love!

Love,

Ruth and Pat


I often think that Ruth should be here with Bennett not me - it was her energy and love that brought Bennett into the world.  


Bennett said tonight that Momo always made her feel better.


Ran 2 miles with zeus today.

Magic

lovely aunty

Magic is an important element in our life right now.  Bennett wants Santa to bring her Momo and magic.  She is in love with mermaids and barbie all impossible things.

I want Santa to bring me a live in babysitter.  My sister is coming for the summer - which is excellent but I need to do something during the school year.  I will be teaching two nights a week and would like to have someone to take care of   Bennett that lives with us.  That would be magical.

We took a large chocolate cake to school today - luckily the teachers are wonderfully flexible and used it for a snack.  We made it yesterday and I had no idea what to do with it.

Ran 3.5 miles at the gym that felt good.

Snow Farm

It turned out to be a great weekend - I once again loved teaching at Snow Farm!

The combination of sharing information, wonderful people and a beautiful environment makes it fun.   There is a very non competitive feel to the place which appeals to me.  I have always been interested in the quiet and sensitive people.  Here is one cutting metal - love it!

She lost her husband 10 years ago - I did not get the details of what happened to her daughter but she wanted to make a memorial to them.  We did not finish all she wanted to make but I hope to help her in the future.  She was lovely.

So were the other people in the class!

B and I took the day off together - we hung out in jammies, cleaned, played tickle and puzzle then made a cake.  Hopefully we will take the cake to school tomorrow.

No running for 4 days - ugh.

Wiped out

Today was the first day of a two day intensive welding class that I am teaching at Snow Farm this weekend and I am wiped out.  I had to get myself and B up at dawn to drop her at aunties before class.

When I arrived at Snow Farm my early bird student talked non stop at me while I set the studio up.  She ended up being a challenging student and walked out of class frustrated by "the performance of the welders- they would not work for her." Everyone else seemed fine - I also had an extra student that no one seemed to know about - he was perfectly pleasant.

Usually I have a lot of fun teaching these classes - but the added stress of attending to Bennett's needs morning and night, demanding students and an extra full class has been tough.

Julie brought Bennett to SF after class.  She ran around like mad.  Luckily Amy offered to show my slides so I could take her home early.

Last year B in the hay hut

And we do it all again tomorrow - I do not know how people do this.