Life goes on until it is over

This is it life goes on until its over.                              Grab on while it lasts.  Live, live until you cannot.  

My friend Sandy was unusually uncommunicative and I thought she might be mad at me but she was occupied by the fact that her niece is critically ill with cystic fibrosis and may be dying.  Her niece  is not very old in her twenties - life is not fair. 

A good Friend Gail stopped by to visit us tonight - she is a delight and always in the midst of living(really!).  I am happy to hear her daughters are doing well.  Her husband has had a recent fight with cancer and is struggling with his physical limitations put on him by this disease.  All I can say is go Michael go!- find anything that can be yours and have it.  I want to hunt mushrooms with you in the fall and talk of politics and the natural world and how they should be seperate but are not.

Zues and I ran 3 miles in the woods - sometimes I think this is what I am meant to do all day.  All else falls away when we run!  

cookouts and playdates

Another busy day - the oncoming summer seems to bring cookouts and playdates.

Aunt Ruth came over for pancakes this morning.  She and B went to the park while I ran 3 miles with Zues and went shopping.  

Bennett and I then went to a party at Amy and Zan's (prelude parents).  There were wonderful kids, parents and food at the party.  I do feel like a bit of an oddity at these gatherings.  At one point the conversation turned to asking me what it was like to be a single parent - luckily Lisa was there (I think she may be the only other single parent at Prelude) and chimed in. 

Bennett did well sticking with her friend Estelle.  She is a sweet and incredibly mature kid -  Lisa her mom (the single parent) is great and very social - hopefully we will see them this summer.  We got home late, had a bath and went to bed.

dreams and days

Last night I woke up to dreams of Ruth.  We were talking about the future she said she would not be there  but I would.  I just wanted her to hold me and she did.

We went to the farm yesterday first time this spring.  Bennett and Avy ran around barefoot playing in the dirt while Sandy and I picked peas.   I was a bit stern with the girls toward the end I was tired and did not want to chase them down.  Bennett has gotten into the habit of running.  She ran out of a park today while visiting our new friends in Longmeadow.  Her new friend, Letha  got a talking too and I tried to tell B how important it was not to run off.

Letha and her family were very sweet - they had a present for B and one for Letha to share.  We had a lovely time with Letha and her little cute brother Robbie at the park.  Thanks to Lynne who called Megan (mom of family) and introduced us.

I should have had the camera today but did take a pic of last nights dinner - peas, tofu, greens and toasted pumpkin seeds, thanks to the farm.

Liz who is the mother of the farm gave me her condolences yesterday.  She said she would miss Ruth's face and her gracious ways.

These are the days - ran 3.5 miles yesterday nothing today other than running after B.

birthday invites

Some days I am just lost.  I cannot find my way - tried to work on the house but just could not get far today.  Projects seem to big and I am unable to stay focussed.

I did get B to school and ran with Zues 2.5 miles.  We started the invites to B's party - its a bit involved having Bennett write everyones names on the envelopes.  She does not want to write the boys names and I am not sure how to direct people to our park.  We call it the Sargeant St park but its on the town map as the Rohan Park (I have never heard anyone call it that).  I will just do the best I can and give my email for more direction.

Whatever happens will be good - we will have a bouncehouse,  a dog cake(made by Bev!), Avy and Aunties!

clean and fed

Zues is back - we ran 3 miles on Mnt Tom.  It was a beautiful day sunny and rainy, cloudy and cool all in one day like only new england has.

I cleaned the basement studio and cried.

Avy hung out with me and B after school - she is a sweetie and B cried when she left and said that they loved each other!  Sandy reminded me I need to get some invites for Bennett's party out this week - ugh.  I have so much to do but only seem to manage keeping us clean and fed.

Days go by

So much happens in a day.   A possible grant for welding equipment for the race st place- now we need to wait till spring to apply.  I met with Lori and Vteck and they are encouraging about developing the welding studio.   I will invest myself in July building work spaces and hopefully having some mini classes.

Bennett is developing and consuming me - she is incredible!  My sister is coming soon! Then I will look for Mary Poppins to move in with us in the fall.

Ran 3.5 miles today - need to up it - Met a mother of 7 this weekend who looked incredible! hope to keep moving!

may miles

May's miles - not as many as I thought I ran.

◄ April	~ May 2012 ~					June ►
Sun	Mon	Tue	Wed	Thu	Fri	Sat
		1   3.5 miles	2	3  3.5 miles	4	5  3.5 miles
6  3. miles	7   2.5 miles	8   3.5 miles	9  3.5 miles	10  2 miles	11	12
13  3 miles	14  3.5 miles	15  2.5 miles	16	17  3 miles	18  3 miles	19
20	21	22  3.5 miles	23  2 miles	24  2 miles	25  3.5 miles	26
27	28  3 miles	29  3.5 miles	30  3 miles	31  2.5 miles	Notes: Total 63 miles

Taught at SF today to a wonderful group of cyclists.  Both Karen and Steve love to bike so they put together a weekend of biking and art making.  Welding came easily to the group because they were very in tune with their bodies.