I have had a hard time posting. It has been a year and missing Ruth is harder than ever. Nancy says she is with me. I know that is true because Bennett sees Momo. She saw her in our kitchen and in the orange sky of sunrise. Bennett sings about her being with god as an angel. I am following Bennett as best as I can.
As Nancy says I gave Bennett to Ruth and she gave Bennett to me.
Pat, when I was watching the girls and teaching them that Jimmy Cliff song, Bennett asked me to pick her up and dance with her in the kitchen, so I did. (As Avy clamored for me to pick her up, too, of course.) We were spinning around, cheek-to-cheek, and I suddenly had the most visceral feeling of Ruth's presence in the kitchen. Maybe it was the body memory of all those times she and I danced with the girls in music class. I think Nancy is right: Ruth is with you and Bennett in ways that we cannot comprehend. What a gift you and Ruth gave to each other. Love to you and B.
ReplyDeleteI want to say something to you Pat so you will know I'm here reading your posts and I'm with you, supporting you - there just isn't anything more to say than what Nancy, Sandy and B have already let you know. Ruth is with you.
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